Again...

Disaster, again this week.

So we'll play football tomorrow.

That's how you deal with it, right? You keep going. And, if you're me, you PREACH your way through it. This week's sermon was written for my wife, who's in Maui sitting by her Dad who had a massive stroke on Monday. He lived. They told us the first few days were the most 'touch and go'. Now that he's off life-support and breathing on his own we get to watch and wait to see if he'll ever walk or talk or sail or garden or build or squeeze his grandkids ever again.

(I'm betting he will)

He's 64.

Balls.

Disaster.

Did I mention we've had three deaths in our family this year? Did I further mention that I've lost two major contracts this year? (and I'm not even going to mention the financial impact in this public of a space) It might be enough to say...

I'm thinking of changing my name to 'Job'.

:)

Am I feeling sorry for myself, ourselves? Nope. I'm loving Jesus. Painfully.

Seriously, as we've walked through this, the wife and I have found ourselves leaning more and more closely on the presence and love of Jesus, which has been VERY palpable in our day to day living. Let's not sugar-coat it, we're still in deep--chest pain inducing--stress almost every moment of every day but, simply put, as a result we're finding ourselves forced into moment to moment living in the arms of Christ. Simple.

If Jesus isn't your sustaining mercy and grace and power and joy in these type of seasons that what-in-the-heck-is-the-point-of-a-life-of-faith anyway? Right?

Right.

So we're putting our 'money' where our pain is.

For us, it's onward and upward to Zion. Onward and upward with Jesus. We're LOVING life, in deepest sorrow and insecurity and pain and in 'worst-case scenario' (at least top-ten level) type suffering.

Which is why I'm preaching my heart out this Sunday online from Psalm 121 and why Sam will play his heart out and I'll coach mine out tomorrow.

'Cause we're learning (and teaching him) that life is too wonderful to stop living.

Truth.

T

Just in case you missed the links posted on twitter and facebook this weekend, here's the direct link to my first sermon (of the video preaching era) on youtube.

"Stay HOME and get to WORK"

(or: How to live THROUGH dark times)

A little closer...

Well, we're almost there.

Thought I'd post a wee screen grab from my sermon video for this upcoming Sunday. Yes, I know I look funny, that's kind of the point.

Spent an hour or so today getting the text inserts and final tweaks done. I'm pretty pleased with how it looks and feels.

I'll release it Sunday morning on YouTube. There will be links here there and everywhere from my blog to facebook, twitter and instagram. 

If you're looking forward to it and know some people who you think might benefit from a 'todd-ish' approach to exploring the Bible, please tell them about it. I'm excited to share these around and, obviously, when it comes to this sort of thing, the more people the merrier.

I've been getting a lot of notes online and off expressing excitement about this and I've found that really encouraging. Thanks for your interest.

Looking forward to *seeing you* (or at least *you* seeing me) this coming Sunday Morning.

Much love,

T

Doin' work...

Back at it today.

'Cause of this verse (and my wife, but more on that later)...

"Even so, the Lord has commanded that those who preach the gospel should live from the gospel..."
                                                                          -1 Cor 9:14 (NKJV)

I stumbled on that verse a couple weeks back in my daily reading and it jumped off the page at me, as if written just for me.

"Get back to work Todd..."

See, we merged THE WELL (a small church we planted in Burlington 2009) with another Church in the area in April of this year and that merge ended up being a short-lived affair with me ending up church-less and pulpit-less as of June.

Not good, if you're a preacher.

Last time this happened to me (I retired from my first church plant in 2007) I ended up having a very bad couple of years that my wife still refers to every time I get that 'dark look' around my eyes.

"You're not going to pull a 2007 on my, are you?" she'll ask, and I'll get the point.

No Ma'am.

So, I spent the summer thinking and waiting, expecting to get some kind of 'direction' as to what I was supposed to do next work-wise. I was still producing television (and that's going quite well these days) but the loss of a pulpit coupled with the loss of the income that had been coming from preaching was a significant issue that was going to need fixing as soon as possible.

It's hard, in those moments, to 'stand still and see the salvation of God...' when everything in you (or at least in me) wants to rush out and fix things yourself.

Anyway, I was in the midst of waiting (and busy resurrecting my devotional life--which goes through ups and downs) when the above passage in 1 Corinthians grabbed me by the throat.

The message is clear. Paul is saying that, if you're a 'professional preacher' (ie: called of God to preach as evidenced by years in the pulpit and fruitful ministry over the long term) you ought to earn your living from being a preacher.

With, or without a church.

That said, thank God for the internet and for the fact that I'm a TV producer.

So, last week I sat down like I always do (same routine, same system, same music in the earphones) and wrote a new sermon which I shot today on white at my office with some of my TV gear. We'll piece it together this week and post it online in time for this Sunday.

And, so begins another chapter.

As long as someone watches, that is.

The fear attached to that (worrying no one will care to watch) kept me from shooting the sermon all of last week and the first part of this. I was procrastinating because I was afraid. Afraid of failure and rejection. Seems you never unlearn some things.

My wife helped me, as she usually does.

"So, you preached your new sermon yet? I told (so and so) about you posting new sermons and her eyes lit up, for whatever that's worth..."

Sweet wife--knew just what to say.

"No, not yet, I've been scared. I'll do it today though..."

Wonderful woman.

So I did. Shot it. Today.

You'll see it Sunday.

Two points from this:

1) Do what you've been made to do, even if people or circumstances get in your way.
2) Never let fear freeze you forever.

And, shower with your wife. That's where we were when she asked the question that turned the tide.

:)

See you on Sunday!

T

Been a while...

The first time I tried a Triathlon THIS was what happened...

Four years later I redeemed myself.

(that picture is me, after the swim, headed out on the bike and, yes, I'm smiling)

Ran my first Olympic Distance (1.5km swim/40km bike/10km run) Triathlon in June and nailed it! In fact, by the time I reached km 9 on the run I started getting emotional, so strong was the sense of redemption I felt after my abject failure the first time around.

The difference?

This time, as a result of my first failure, I knew what to expect and, because I'd failed SO badly the first time, I was determined to NEVER experience that feeling again so...

I stacked miles.

The key to success with a distance race (as in life) lies in doing the prep work required. Simply put, the first time, I didn't train anywhere near hard enough because I had no idea what I was getting myself into. This time (after one more International Sprint distance Tri last year) I knew what to expect and, with that healthy dose of fear in my back pocket, I was able to push myself to train MUCH harder.

I stacked miles.

Running and running and swimming and swimming and riding that race bike farther than I ever thought possible until the distances I was going to have to do on race day, seemed routine.

That's right, routine.

Any challenge in life starts off daunting but (I believe) can become routine...

If you stack enough miles.

And I did, which is why I "did better..."

T

The process...

Our boardroom table covered in the cards for a re-write of one of our biggest scripts. Said script will be going out to several large producers (and a few studios) in H'wood this June so we're hard at it, getting the current draft (#4) ready for a major re-write.

I've been working with a co-writer lately and have found it to be a very rewarding and refreshing process. Two things I find especially helpful, 1) the accountability that comes from knowing someone else is waiting for you at your office to write. This helps immensely with the urge to procrastinate. 2) when you find yourself 'stuck' you have someone to bounce ideas off of, and you get immediate feedback which, I've found, cuts the time that it used to take me to solve a story problem in half (and then half again).

In addition to the above re-write we are developing two original TV drama series concepts as well as getting ready to shoot elements for one (maybe two) feature documentaries this summer.

Add in delivering elements for another documentary that we shipped to a distributor last month as well as prepping for a looming (and possibly life-changing) syndication deal for one of our long-running biography series (which will also mean a 3rd season in production for this fall) and our current talk-series (for an outside client) that's taping its 400th episode this week, and you get a fairly hoppin' production office.

Thankful for that and eager to see what this next season holds.

T

At it...

So, I mentioned that I'm hoping to be spending some more time in L.A this year. The above photo is my one (and only) moment of privacy on my HOME from L.A last month.

I made the mistake of traveling at the end of spring break. Talk about your overcrowding.

The trip was great though; much more productive than I thought my first trip would be. I'm working on setting up season three of one of our series as well as getting ready to shoot elements for two documentary features we have in the pipeline. Additionally I'm shopping a few concepts around, and what's cool, is that this time--for the first time since I started the process of breaking into this business ten years ago--I've actually got ACCESS to people who can help us get ACCESS to people who can greenlight these things.

Major progress.

I realize blogging about your progress can seem like boasting, but I also realize some of you will have been reading this here blog for many years so you'll be able to appreciate the extremely long and difficult process that has been part of this journey so, knowing that, I'm betting you'll be thinking "Phew, it's about time..." rather than "Shut up man, we don't wanna' hear about your so-called success..."

Also, when I read about your positive steps, it makes me feel like the same might be possible for me.

And so on and so forth...

Hoping you have a wonderful Easter!

T