The me I used to be on TV...

That's 'season five' of FREETV you're looking at right there.

Shot in a TINY studio downtown Toronto, cast with mostly friends and friends of friends 'cause we couldn't afford to do any different.  Set with borrowed furniture from EQ3 and Pier 1 that we had to handle with kid gloves to the point that, at the end of our last day's shooting, my Executive Producer was tasked with the very non-executive-like task of 'pledge-ing' the crap out of the tables to try and eliminate the scratches so that we wouldn't be charged for the tables upon their return.

Glamorous.

Not at all.

A little different from where we are today, and yet, today still feels no different in its own 'moment'.  We're still doing things we don't really want to do, still stressing about the budget, though by this point it's more than fifty times what it was then.

Progress.

Maybe, but mostly small.

The thing is, we're still at it.  We started producing 'season one' of that same show back in 1998. That's a million years ago, but we're still at it, hoping to get fifty times bigger still.

Crazy, humbling, overwhelming and exciting.

T