Tough action...

Yes, that's our mini-van with the captains chairs out as we get ready to clear it out to use for the move last week.

Crazy thing is we clean the thing out every single week. Wild. I mean, look at that filth! That's what four kids will do to you. Imagine if we didn't clean it consistently!

Then, the next morning, I pulled up with the moving truck and started loading. This is the first box, first step, first action that felt truly irreversible.

Tough action.

It was hard moving. It's still hard. My wife and I aren't talking about it it's that hard. See, we lived in our last house for almost seven years. By FAR the longest we'd ever lived anywhere. We moved 13 times in the early years of our marriage then slowed down considerably. Four years in the Beach (Toronto) six and a half years in Burlington.

That's what four kids will do to you.

Make you stable, and your cars filthy.

Our rental house is fine, small, with a fireplace (which is nice for winter) and centrally located. The problem is we're not even hanging pictures, which is making us feel unsettled which is exactly *why* we're not hanging pictures.

Makes you feel lonely in your own life.

We're 'using' it (the loneliness) though. Every time we feel frustrated or sad or dislocated or disconnected we channel the angst of that into forward thinking energy. We fixate on what's to come.

"But you don't know what's to come..."

Exactly.

Please allow myself to quote myself...

"The only thing the wife and I find difficult about Faith, is Faith..."

Yes.

It's hard to believe.

So what do you do?

Well, you work hard. Clean the car even though you know it's going to get dirty again. Wash the floors in your humble rental house. Keep looking at houses for sale even though it's two weeks before Christmas so there's nothing for sale. Keep believing that the right house is out there. Keep praying about it in front of your kids. Do the simple things (like breakfast and working out and walks with the kids for hot chocolate, and wine with the wife and lovemaking) you need to do to try and help your life 'feel' normal even though it's not.

Keep taking the tough action needed to find your way forward.

That's what we're doing these days.

T'will be interesting to see how this all turns out.

I've got some cool things brewing (in the meantime) on the business front which is helping us with all the 'blind faith' required around here. I'll update you on that in a day or so. In the meantime...

'Joyeux Noel' everybody.

T